I loved that detail a lot. He went to Haru first, assuming he would be distant and ampathetic. Because Nagisa just assumes others don’t care about him as much as he does for them. But Haru is still very protective of him and cares a lot about his well-being, so he moved onto Makoto. Makoto may be more pushy about finding out why Nagisa is acting a certain way, but Nagisa sees him as more passive than Rei or Haru and more likely to let Nagisa go at his own pace.
If he’d gone to Rei’s house, Rei would have dragged an answer out of him and insisted he confront his parents. He wouldn’t have let Nagisa get away with it. Visiting Rei, in Nagisa’s eyes, was probably no different than confronting his parents.
But the main thing is that Nagisa didn’t want to bother any of his friends. He was camping outdoors because he didn’t want to turn to others for help. He’d rather live in the outside, on his own than worry them. He doesn’t think he deserves their time or concern. Throughout the episode, he only feels worse and worse for dragging them into it.
He doesn’t realize that they would do anything for him until later, and realizing this really shocks and moves him. And it’s the last thing he needed to stand up for himself and be independent.
The way they all stand in front of him, ready to protect him and face anything for him, is what pushes him over. What finally makes him realize how important he is, and that he has the courage to stand up for himself.
Sorry, I kind of went off-track from your original ask. I just have a lot of feels! But you’re right, more than anything, he needed to avoid Rei even though he needed him the most. Because Rei is the one who would make him face his problems, more than anyone. Rei is the one he had to listen to, even if he didn’t want to hear it.
【A o n e T a k a n o b u】
ALL ABOARD THE EMOTIONAL TRAIN WRECK NEXT WEEK
I hope I can stop myself from laying on the floor after this.
LET’S JUST PRETEND THAT THIS IS THEIR GAME FACE AND THEY’RE NOT TAKING CRAP FROM ANYONE
if i ever misgender you or use slang (bro, man, gurl, dude) that makes you feel even slightly uncomfortable please tell me because your gender identity and comfort is more important than any word i may use to refer to you
I didn’t have wifi for some time so I decided to replay Ib
I LOVE ALL THAT HANGED GARRY STUFF
JIRACHI used DOOM DESIRE!